Pretended..

From now onwards i just be PRETENDED..
Then see what she can do...
I pretend what also don't know..
H'ng..
Do wrong already still want to use father's name to scare me..
Gambateh..

forced?nope? what happened??

my mood-moody

i feel like forced by my mom to do things..i feel like she changed..i feel she not respect me and my life..she say if i din share my exp by 29 then i no need go singapore with my friends..it is forcing me to do some thing?i feel so dissapointed to her..everytime i feel her is the best mom in the world but now i feel not anymore..i feel so stress in this house..she can open my room door with the key she have..she din respect my privacy!why she can do that!i don like that..every time she say me like to compare..she say since i going to my house friends and like to compare with them..but i din feel that..i feel i at there learn many things..such as respecting my parents..not comparing..although my friend is richer than me but i feel i get more thing than them..but my mom say i like to compare..they say since i mix them ..and i started to compare what they have..say i compare they have big car,big house..and many more..i just say that their big car and big house is my aiming/ dream..i want to fulfill my dream..MY dream car and house..is it also wrong?i really don't know how to face my mom..i feel so tired..i stay in the room more than seeing her..although nothing do in the room but i feel more relax in the room..seeing her just like very stress..very pressure..actually what happen to my mom?!any 1 can tell me..in between that i already told her that my december is finishing by playing..enjoying..but now she like forcing me to share my experience..this and that..i started to talk to my dog again.i ask him whether become a dog is more happy or become a human..haha..this type of thinking is worst..may bring a deeper karma for me..but i really cant stop me from thinking of that..my dog early morning he will enjoy a walk..he like to go out!then will sitting outside enjoy the scenery..then around 8 or o'clock..he will going for a nap..around 11 he will going to walk to pass urine again..then come back have ice cream to eat..and some dog food if he want..then sleep again..until evening 5..he can have a longer way to walk to pass motion..so relax man..then coma back..got people wash hand and legs for him..so nice..the dinner may prepare around 6 to 7..an egg and some food also..after my dad come back,my dad will fetch him to go by car..have you ever seen a dog go walk by car everyday?then he may sleep o sitting outside..went at night 10 he can go for walk and come back can drink "tong kua" teh..it is very relax life?!what can i do now?i really very stress!more stress than study!i wanted to go school when school reopen!can i?!

my fault?

this computer i think i had use 6 years and above.it the time to change 1,right?but my mom say our house is not a company that Photostat money.ARGH!but this computer is already spoil 90%. what can i do?this computer cant watch movie, cant play game, some times also got problem to online..so i just hope to change a computer.is better a laptop because when i going to study college or what ..i still can use it.but now they say is my fault..what the !!!i feel really this house is just a shell for me.i want to left the shell already..the fastest the better!!!i hope to earn much more money to buy what i want!i feel so pressure and stress!!!every time get scolded by my father.i also don't know what wrong with thats.always is my fault.children is always wrong while eldest is always right!